Bleedvalve ------ I've now given up. I will converse with you no more. I will however, leave you with something to think about......perhaps.
I have a neighbour and friend, two houses away, by the name of Bob Pearson. Now who in the Hell is Bob Pearson? Bob Pearson made the news world-wide a number of years ago flying what became known as "The Gimli Glider".........the AC 767 that ran out of fuel if you remember. The story is well-known and I won't repeat it again here. He received awards from all kinds of world-wide aviation groups and air forces. At home AC villified him and his career was basically over as regards promotions. Before that event, he had a spotless career with a perfect personnel file. He has all kinds of reasons to be bitter, but has put it behind him and moved on into another career because he said, otherwise, it would destroy him and he wasn't giving AC that satisfaction.
Best of luck to you for the future.