Hey CTD - don''t take it so hard. The realization that your time spent perfecting and honing your skills on this can''t be logged shouldn''t make you physically ill.
It might seem like you''ve wasted a lot time right now, but later in life it will pay off. You''ll get the opportunity to regale the guys in the pilot''s lounge at the hangar with tales of your "fling wing" prowess and they won''t even know that the reason for your oversized pointing finger isn''t the result of some tragic accident (although in a way I guess it is)