The first mistake you made was being a SCAB.
The next mistake you made was getting on this board and bragging about it.
Your career in aviation is scarred for the rest of your life.
Have a little respect for yourself and the craft your a part of and walk out of the situation your in. Drive yourself to the AMFA hall and tell them you had been a SCAB and decided it wasn't worth it. Make up for you past mistakes by taking a turn or two in the picket line before returning home to find an aviation job rather than an aviation opportunity that turns you into a thief. Years from now, perhaps even weeks from now you'll be able to forgive yourself for the crimes you have committed against the craft, aviation workers, and the middle class.