Hi everyone! I cant tell you how it makes me feel to read nice messages, I was allowed a computer for ten minutes... I am going to be here longer than I thought because I didn't like the medicine they were giving me so I was spitting it out and I thought I wasn't caught but...something about pulse defecit and so I still remain on the first floor which is the most intensive level and had been hoping to move up to level two today and was denied by my medical team.
I am really discouraged. I want to tell you all that I was not watching television and only had limited information on the crash and only heard that it went into the hudson river. I was devastated, and when I finally learned the real truth and that it was a miracle, it was too late. I suffer post traumatic stress disorder from the flight that crashed from CLT to GSP a handful of years ago, and I had to be sedated very heavily for a few days. You all are my family and I am dying here without you.
I don't mean that literally, but I am trying hard. And I know that this seems a little scary and serious for my character , but it has been very challenging to go through what I am going through here without family and being cut off from the world and my extended family. I was refusing valiums and hiding them because I just wanted to "feel" and then I'd see the plane being pulled out of the water and my heart would break, and all the smells and sounds from the express flight I watched would come back and my heart monitor would go berzerk.
I miss you, my family painfully and your notes warm and nurture my broken heart. I mean it.
Thank you, and Gunther, Im really sorry about the message you got the other day it wasnt my fault.
Love you all. Keep posting for me. please.
SNN