"Show me where I called you any of those things."......."Those are two words I use regularly....."
Noted, and once again; no healthy people could make this kind of behavior up. You would do well to address at least some of your issues. Life needn't be such an angry and miserable experience. We all go through troubled times and situations. If merely the thwarted pursuit of the Nic Grail is proving this trying to you...you've likely been very blessed and very lucky so far. I've observed people being far less angry and generally disturbed, to the degree some routinely evidence here, during actual war. A kind suggestion would be to grow up.